Fitting in for me is a difficult thing to do, it might not seem as such though. I have a lot of friends, I get along with almost everyone, and the like. Sometimes it's really emotionally difficult to be the only Asian in the room full of people. I feel out of place. Don't get me wrong now, I absolutely adore my Korean heritage and I wouldn't trade being Korean to be of a different race. That doesn't mean that I don't have issues with feeling uncomfortable most of the time. I love going to Korean restaurants, Asian stores, Korea town in Chicago and Korea town in New York.
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Monday, June 6, 2011
Dun dun... Dun dun dundundun...
Okay, so I've realized that it's been way too long since I posted last. Nah, I won't bother making up excuses. I should have posted but I didn't. Even I have my lazy moments. On Wednesday evening I met up with some pretty awesome people at the park, went off to Tacobell with a "strange" man, and then ran around in the water at the Heart of Burnsville. On Friday I went to class, went to the mall with my cousin, ate ice cream, picked up Hannah and Leah, went to the lake and TRIED to hit a beach ball around, then went out and bought more ice cream and watched Treasure Island.. The Muppet thing. So yeah. It was pretty awesome. I uploaded a ton of pictures on Facebook yesterday and today, it felt really good to finally get them up. I've been meaning to for a long while. I couldn't find my camera cord thing so I had to go out and buy a card reader, it was only seven dollars. Cool huh? Now I'll just keep this nifty little thing with my laptop accessories and hopefully it will stay there... Lets hope it doesn't get up and walk a way, eh?
Filling out my calendar was quite the job, I imputed all the dates I know I will be gone for in Sharpie Pen and used pencil to fill in any possibly dates of being gone or even being available. Staring at all the dates is a bit over-whelming when you look at it as a whole, so much time not even being home, sleeping in my own bed. Ah well.. I enjoy keeping busy. I love my own bed a lot though, it's nice to just come home and literally faceplant into it then just lay there.(I got a funny mental image and laughed out loud. Bahaha.)
I love sleep. My body loves sleep. My brain loves sleep. Right now I am severely lacking in the sleep department, since I got four solid hours of sleep and I can't seem to drift off again. I put on some SVU but still, I can't seem to be able to fall asleep. Usually I am able to fall back asleep pretty quickly but apparently this morning is different. Hopefully I can nap later and make up for some of this much needed sleep, since I'm going out tonight. Well I guess this post is good enough for now, since I'll probably be posting at least one more time today. I hope.
~Sarah-Mae
Filling out my calendar was quite the job, I imputed all the dates I know I will be gone for in Sharpie Pen and used pencil to fill in any possibly dates of being gone or even being available. Staring at all the dates is a bit over-whelming when you look at it as a whole, so much time not even being home, sleeping in my own bed. Ah well.. I enjoy keeping busy. I love my own bed a lot though, it's nice to just come home and literally faceplant into it then just lay there.(I got a funny mental image and laughed out loud. Bahaha.)
I love sleep. My body loves sleep. My brain loves sleep. Right now I am severely lacking in the sleep department, since I got four solid hours of sleep and I can't seem to drift off again. I put on some SVU but still, I can't seem to be able to fall asleep. Usually I am able to fall back asleep pretty quickly but apparently this morning is different. Hopefully I can nap later and make up for some of this much needed sleep, since I'm going out tonight. Well I guess this post is good enough for now, since I'll probably be posting at least one more time today. I hope.
~Sarah-Mae
Friday, May 20, 2011
Relationships
Well guys, I must admit that last night was rough. Really rough. You know, friends come and go but there are certain people who stay by your side, no matter what. I have those people as my best friends, I honestly have no idea what I would do if I didn't have them. Sometimes you go through rough times with your friends, sometimes they are the reason times are tough... Sometimes it's best to let those people go, to move on with your life. When you want one thing and your friend wants something else it causes an unbalanced relationship. Or.. When you put so much of your time and effort into a relationship that is going no where, at all, it's oh so very one-sided. It weighs you down, takes so much out of you emotionally. Both parties need to put effort into a relationship if it's going to be healthy, balanced, and just an over-all good relationship.
Why is my relationship with this person imbalanced?
I feel like I'm the only one who puts time into it, I'm the one starting our "conversations", if you could even consider them conversations. I go out of my way to try and talk and see this person, even if I really just don't feel like it. I would just like the other person to try and make things work, to put their own time and effort into it. Is that too much to ask for?
Brianna
Why do Bri and I have such an awesome friendship that will honestly last through high school, college, and so on? We both put time into it, yeah, even we have rough times once in a while of just not feeling like we want to put the effort into attempting to look at least somewhat presentable. Sometimes it's just "too much work". But hey, usually we get off our butts and do it anyways. Why? Because, we are best friends and we'd like to keep it that way. Bri has been there for me through everything. I really mean it when I say it, everything. We officially became best friends over our seventh grade South Dakota Missions Trip. From then on we just clicked, it was really that simple. We are so open with each other, we know everything about each other. I feel like I've known her my ENTIRE life, it's so odd. Odd in a good way. I know with my whole heart that I could tell her absolutely anything without fear of being judged, though different, thought less of, or losing her as my best friend. I barely have a life outside of her, not that I don't go out with other friends and such. We are the same person, yet we are total opposites. Does that even make any sense to you? We are so much alike in such different ways. Argh, I could go on and on about Bri. She is the best. She is so incredibly special. You see, we're going to live together after college hopefully. Our careers permitting, we will share a place. Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I love Bri. The end.
~Sarah-Mae
Why is my relationship with this person imbalanced?
I feel like I'm the only one who puts time into it, I'm the one starting our "conversations", if you could even consider them conversations. I go out of my way to try and talk and see this person, even if I really just don't feel like it. I would just like the other person to try and make things work, to put their own time and effort into it. Is that too much to ask for?
Brianna
Why do Bri and I have such an awesome friendship that will honestly last through high school, college, and so on? We both put time into it, yeah, even we have rough times once in a while of just not feeling like we want to put the effort into attempting to look at least somewhat presentable. Sometimes it's just "too much work". But hey, usually we get off our butts and do it anyways. Why? Because, we are best friends and we'd like to keep it that way. Bri has been there for me through everything. I really mean it when I say it, everything. We officially became best friends over our seventh grade South Dakota Missions Trip. From then on we just clicked, it was really that simple. We are so open with each other, we know everything about each other. I feel like I've known her my ENTIRE life, it's so odd. Odd in a good way. I know with my whole heart that I could tell her absolutely anything without fear of being judged, though different, thought less of, or losing her as my best friend. I barely have a life outside of her, not that I don't go out with other friends and such. We are the same person, yet we are total opposites. Does that even make any sense to you? We are so much alike in such different ways. Argh, I could go on and on about Bri. She is the best. She is so incredibly special. You see, we're going to live together after college hopefully. Our careers permitting, we will share a place. Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I love Bri. The end.
~Sarah-Mae
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